Yet...I'm not ready to be exclusive with him (and perhaps neither is he as men are typically slower in that regard). In fact, I don't feel the need for exclusivity until both of us are ready to commit to each other.  Exclusivity doesn't serve me -as a woman- at this point of my life.  I want to keep my options open until that one man who deserves me is ready to drop everything to be with me and willing to give me what I want without reserve, because he loves me and can't see his life without me in it.

He asked during our lovemaking -probably because I mentioned I wanted to make sure I was the only woman he wanted to be with (you know I talk a lot during sex: it's really great to have the "talk" during this most intimate moment when we are both so open and vulnerable :) ) -, "Do you want me just for yourself? It's an honor that you would want me just for yourself.")

Yes eventually, I said.  Don't know when yet. And he told me when we were apart for 6 weeks because I was in my home country that he was still dating too but none of the gals held a candle to me.

He asked about what I wanted and told him matter-of-factly, without the drama and anxiety.  Lucky with me, he always initiated all the "talk."  He was very open about it. I didn't have to sit him and try to engage him in such awkward conversation.  Meanwhile he told me his ex wanted to get back together, he said to me though that it's not gonna happen.

Whatever...I still have an ex who is still in love with me too and though I felt so happy and connected with him during the visit, there was time the thought of leaving my husband loomed heavy in my head. SG and I were getting closer and more comfortable with each other, yet there is still this last "stubborn" strand connecting me to my husband...the love is still there. I knew in my heart I felt that way only because things had been going so well with SG (yeah I was ahead of myself: living in my head, not advisable).

I went out on a date last night. I would like to know this man better because I feel we might have things in common and sparks in the making. I felt reasonably attracted to him (that should be enough for a woman..the way I was with SG when I first lay eyes on him).

It's all about experimentation at the moment, and not getting too invested in any one man until he drops everything to be with us (and we're sure that he's the one among many contenders, of course).