Tomorrow is the beginning of our new program Module 1 of
Feminine Magnetism
Group Coaching and as a first class I'm going to touch a very lofty subject: the Expansion of Consciousness: From Egoic to Cosmic.
My awakening let me see for the first time what ego truly meant. I saw for the first time what
no-self really meant. It wasn’t what I thought it was (and whatever I thought was VAGUE at best after all).
It shows the intellect (mind) can't grasp what is beyond its experience of reality. It can only project and conceptualize. And of course I projected what being awakened/enlightened was like according to my own idea of it. And it isn't like what I thought it would be.
There is no way to imagine it
cause how can you imagine red if you never see red?
This is why teaching this thing is so tricky and you can only allude and take analogies to describe it. To really know it, only through direct experience can you access it fully.
So ego is none other than a conception of self that you have cultivated, subscribed to, defended, despised and identified with all your life. Concepts are none other than thoughts. And
thoughts are very limited and dualistic.
Thoughts are limited because they are conditioned which means they depend on so many external factors: experience, culture, upbringing, preferences, perception which all point out to the stale memories of the past.
The ego is static and against the very fabric of existence which is in constant flux (impermanence). No wonder attachment to it brings about a lot of tension and
suffering.
No-self is the answer to our human predicaments, hence ALL spiritual traditions eventually come to this very simple question with most elusive answer: WHO AM I? Its realization is the pinnacle of all spiritual seeking. Its impact is all-encompassing and expansive. Your whole relationship to life and the world totally shifts with this realization.
I saw for the first time what I had come to believe as my
self (or selves) were mere illusions or facades not unlike layers of onions that upon being peeled off would come into the empty center. That is our True Self: the empty core, the boundless, infinite, undefined and fluid.
I saw for the first time that my True Self is the Witness or a detached observer of all these phenomena outer and inner, and mainly inner. Unconditional acceptance of this undefined self begins to creep in.
When you see the deceptive, illusory and obsessive nature of the mind, you stop believing in it. You stop identifying with it. Its power begins to diminish like when you no longer believe in Santa you stop paying attention to its importance.
That’s how you curtail your obsession to thinking because you know thinking hasn’t served your life very well. Thinking is the root of all your existential problems.
Your brain as the result starts to expand and create new neuron connections. This is how you transform your brain.
Now you understand what the ego is, you know what egoic consciousness is. Egoic consciousness is consciousness that is so limited, restricted and revolves around the fulfillment the ego’s endless thirst for and attachment to pleasure that generates from stimulation of the senses: sight, auditory, smell, touch, taste and the mind as well as
the running away from the pain that follows because pleasure and pain come together as a pair.
The ignorance of this reality causes the attachment, aversion and the suffering that follows.
Since ego isn’t separate from thoughts, one way to understand the ego and its movement is by observing the thoughts. Most people are their thoughts cause they and their thoughts are one. It’s not possible for them to
watch their ego (thoughts) because how can the eye see itself?
So in order to begin to understand one’s self, there must be a gap between us and thoughts. We need to slow down the thought processes which means we need to create a sense of presence so we can identify gaps between thoughts.
Only when you can be aware of gaps between thoughts (silence), can you be aware of thoughts. That’s what meditation is all
about.
Bliss is the energy that responds to stillness. It comes from emptying consciousness of all content. The content of this bliss energy born of stillness is consciousness. A new consciousness of the heart. A consciousness that is connected to ALL that is. This is what cosmic consciousness is.
My awakening led me faster to the expansion of consciousness, without doubt. I had years of experience of meditation but I was never a disciplined meditator if that meant sitting every day in a lotus position.
Throughout the years my meditation was usually about being mindful (and wasn’t always successful at that,
granted). My awakening introduced me to a world without thoughts and it was magnificent and so freeing. For six weeks I was in the sea of tranquility and it was so effortless, not to say ADDICTIVE!
That’s the ego now taking shape into a new entity: an enlightened being in perpetual bliss. The ego is very subtle and any form of grasping and addiction is the sign of the ego is still there lurking in the corner every now and then. And our
job is to be aware of it at all time.
So yeah my ego at times was still grasping onto that experience, of wanting to repeat and have more of the blissful sensation.
From this experience I conclude that your subjective reality (your spiritual realization) changes the structure of your brain (it is now much quieter and more functional bringing you bliss more often than not) and in the process brings more peace into your life and
more clear seeing.
It’s the process that keeps on unraveling and strengthening naturally. Your realization will mature over time.
If you haven’t tasted that experience, getting onto the path that will bring you into close investigation of your self is the way to go. This is the purpose of this program, not so much of learning of new stuff but unlearning from all the mental programming and
conditioning that keeps us in the trap of delusion/ignorance.
We look within, not without for answers.
"One who looks outside dreams. One who looks inside awakes," ~Carl Jung
Are you intrigued yet? I will delve into this intricate matter of consciousness tomorrow at 3 PM EST. And mind you all the discounts ($50-$300) will expire tonight at midnight PT.
